30 Days of Truth: Day Twenty Nine

Day Twenty Nine - Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

I would love to stop procrastinating. I'm so adept at procrastinating that I'll put something off for a good cause, knowing that I'm not really doing a bad thing, but also knowing full well that I'm not doing the right thing. I allow my priorities to be out of whack. A friend of mine once said, "When I know I'm not doing what I really should be doing, even if I'm still being productive, I just feel... off. Y'know?" Oh. Boy howdy. Do I ever know.

I write when I know I should be working on cards. I work on cards when I know I should be writing. I work on cards and write when I know I should be doing laundry. I paint when I should be making cards or writing. I use the jejune excuse "there's just not enough time in a day."

There would be if I'd set time goals and stick to them. I wake up with that intention. I open my eyes and think, "Ah. 6 a.m. ...a good early start! I'll drink a cup of bean and wake up. Check my email. Say hello to the facebook world. Write a quick blog post. Throw in a load of laundry. Figure out dinner. And be back in the rabbit hole by 10." Right? No. Not right.

Somewhere along the way I end up writing two posts, or getting sucked into a conversation, or deciding to bake something, or.... you see? I'm not doing bad things! I'm just not doing the things I really need to be doing. I'm procrastinating.

I'm procrastinating right now, writing this. That's just how good at it I am.

I hope to change that. I hope to end my propensity for procrastination. I've tried before, and I can be successful at it for a couple of days, and then I backslide. Completely.

I'll work on it. I promise I will.

Tomorrow.